$uicideboy$ - Are You Going to See the Rose in the Vase, or the Dust on the Table

I already know what time I'm on, double R sliding, no autobahn
She tryna get my love, the best I can do is a trauma bond
Poppin' these pills got easier, but gettin' high been gettin' harder
Remember them days in momma's house, holding to my grandfather
Remember them days in the Envoy, it was just me and Oddy
Now all of my homies got their own buzz, but they ain't got time for bonding
Tellin' myself that it's okay, knowing it's a lie
Ayy, never at home, just passin' by
I was always told that boys don't cry, why am I so broke inside?
Waste time on an inner child, motherfucker been dead since five
Seen my dad OD at 9, was never the same again
I never had a chance to win